uhhhmmm... not so exciting.

sorry, but post number 100 isn't working out quite as well as I was hoping for it to, so uhmmm... I'm sorry, but this isn't gonna be the super amazing post I was hoping for it to be. Sorry. Anyhow, so this is not really gonna be an amazing fun post, just an update. Sorry to everyone.

Current state... uhmmm.... stressed, depressed, frustrated, about to my whits end, and very deperate for a break. In horrible need of a vacation that lets me unwind, etc. You get the drift. So, this semester didn't go very well. Oh well, that is something that i can't really change right now. :( I wish that t would have gone alot better, even a little better would have made me feel alot better. In my defense, this has been a very rough semester outside of school too. Try feeding a rabbit antibiotics through a baby syringe twice a day from October until December, and then some. This poor rabbit just had her third abscess drained. The first two are gone. The first one was easy, it was on her foot, and it went away very easily, the second one was the one on her jaw, and now the third one that I'm working on getting rid of is near her eye. Went to the vet, and got it drained the other day, she's back on the antibiotics again. Whoo! Poor rabbit.

Oh yeah, did I mention that I haven't had a break from school that lasted more than 4 weeks since the beginning of college. Over the past 2 and a half years, I have attended school every spring, every fall, every summer session offered, and most intersessions. During the few times that I do have breaks from school, and during school, I have been working. I have yet to ask for a break off from work that isn't for a family trip, or the week off last spring break. I need a break, and can't afford one. How sad is that?

So I'm sick of feeling stupid, but whatelse is new. I really don't want to take anything from anyone. I don't really want to talk about it at all, and I really am sick of people implying that they're smarter than other people. I don't really care how they do it, it's just mean, and arrogant, and ego happy. (I'm not singling out anyone here, because almost everyone does it, I know I do it from time to time even.) I'm just asking for people to not do that to me, at least for a while. I know that probably sounds kindda selfish, but please, just let me be a for a bit. Also, I am asking that if anyone catches me doing that to them that they call me out on it, because as much as it bothers me when people do that to me, I really don't want to do that to anyone else.

Christmas... sigh. Not good, not bad, just kindda there. End of discussion.

The New Year's Eve party is gonna be pretty cool, I'm working with Tabz to try to make it better than any other party before; by decorations, if nothing else, but it should be cool, we're gonna meet to try to work out all the kinks by tomorrow.

So anyhow, that about wraps it up for me right now, sorry it wasn't more exciting like it should have been. I'll keep working on it.

I'll catch you all later,
bye, Elizabeth.

Band of the week (maybe even month)::LINKIN PARK

So... welcome to post number 99, including that double post back there, sorry about that but I'm just too lazy to remove it, so you kindda have to deal with it. Let me reassure you all that post number 100 will be pretty cool, or something of that sort.

But anyhow, so.... life these days:: stress, stress, headache, stress, more headache, cosideration of gouging out the eyeball to get to the headache and remove it, more stress, stress due to the headaches, headaches due to the stress... nasty cycle, really. I don't like it at all.

Anyhow, so... tired, stressed, and frustrated... oh well. Oh yeah, and it seems that I'm discovering more and more that I'm not a strong enough person to deal with my life. Funny how it works, isn't it? The only way you can gain strength the strength you need to survive a hard 'trial,' is to endure other trials that you're not even sure you have enough strength to overcome in the first place. So, while you need more strength for the things you're forced into, you can't even get through the basic things that you should be able to. My life feels like I'm trying to get through the last level of a video game on the first try, without ever having held a controller before.

It feels like I'm stuck in slow motion, and fast forward at the same time. I just want to be able to solve my own problems at my own pace, with none of this 'intervention' or outside bitching. A breath of fresh air has never hurt anyone, especially during the week(s) leading up finals.

Uhhh... school. Not good. Oh well. Not aweful, but no where near good enough.

Yeah, and LINKIN PARK has captured my soul, and put it into song, repeatedly. Yay for them. The reason for songs is to share a story, or idea with the rest of the world that others can relate to, but probably not put into words.

Yeah, I'm gonna close this now, because i'm kindda zoning out.... It's taken me about two hours to write this much. Goodnight everyone. Sleep well, sweet dreams. bye, Elizabeth

4 in the morning.

Saint Etienne Lyrics

4:35 In The Morning Lyrics

Hey baby
I've been up all night
Trying to make sense of my life


Day's breaking
Things are getting bright
After all this time


And any fool could see
That you're the best thing
That's happened to me


4:35 in the morning
Everything is clear


4:35 in the morning
I wish that you were here


So lately
I've been coming home
Sleepy, all alone


Don't hate me
Left here on my own
Staring at the phone


And any fool could see
That you're the best thing
That's happened to me


4:35 in the morning
Everything is clear


4:35 in the morning
I wish that you were here


4:35 in the morning
Everything is clear


I hear the phone
It's ringing loud
I'm coming alive


4:35
4:35


Yeah any fool could see
That you're the best thing
That's happenened to me


4:35 in the morning
Everything is clear


4:35 in the morning
Everything is clear


4:35 in the morning
4:35 in the morning
4:35


***Note, I have never listened to this song, but somehow the lyrics seem appropriate. (Probably because it's 4:03 now)


The fish got transfered to the new tank, he seems much happier.
but still not all better.

Hazel, the poor thing, looks alot better, but still pretty bad, the stitches have disolved. Poor girl. She seems much happier though, and almost eager to come out and take the antibiotics - so long as they are followed by yogurt chips (no surprise there.)

I'm not tired yet, but I should be. Lots of work to do still. I still have tons of stuff to do this weekend, and I haven't really started.

My check got sent to Dallas. :( Oh well. Thanksgiving was alright. Altogether, i would say I've had too much family lately, and I'm kindda ready for the break to be over. i need to do lots more work for IHS, so that I have spending money for Christmas, and my continuation of stockpiling for moving out in Janurary. (Yay!!!!) Still stressed, but cest la vie.

Anyhow, so I'm gonna attempt to get some sleep now, so I can do get up earlyish, and get lots of work done tomorrow. The down side of being in charge of your own working schedule is that you tend to put alot of other things higher up on the priority list due to the flexibility of working.

So sleep,
Goodnight,
Hoping for a good bedlam tomorrow,
Elizabeth.

4 in the morning.

Saint Etienne Lyrics

4:35 In The Morning Lyrics

Hey baby
I've been up all night
Trying to make sense of my life


Day's breaking
Things are getting bright
After all this time


And any fool could see
That you're the best thing
That's happened to me


4:35 in the morning
Everything is clear


4:35 in the morning
I wish that you were here


So lately
I've been coming home
Sleepy, all alone


Don't hate me
Left here on my own
Staring at the phone


And any fool could see
That you're the best thing
That's happened to me


4:35 in the morning
Everything is clear


4:35 in the morning
I wish that you were here


4:35 in the morning
Everything is clear


I hear the phone
It's ringing loud
I'm coming alive


4:35
4:35


Yeah any fool could see
That you're the best thing
That's happenened to me


4:35 in the morning
Everything is clear


4:35 in the morning
Everything is clear


4:35 in the morning
4:35 in the morning
4:35


***Note, I have never listened to this song, but somehow the lyrics seem appropriate. (Probably because it's 4:03 now)


The fish got transfered to the new tank, he seems much happier.
but still not all better.

Hazel, the poor thing, looks alot better, but still pretty bad, the stitches have disolved. Poor girl. She seems much happier though, and almost eager to come out and take the antibiotics - so long as they are followed by yogurt chips (no surprise there.)

I'm not tired yet, but I should be. Lots of work to do still. I still have tons of stuff to do this weekend, and I haven't really started.

My check got sent to Dallas. :( Oh well. Thanksgiving was alright. Altogether, i would say I've had too much family lately, and I'm kindda ready for the break to be over. i need to do lots more work for IHS, so that I have spending money for Christmas, and my continuation of stockpiling for moving out in Janurary. (Yay!!!!) Still stressed, but cest la vie.

Anyhow, so I'm gonna attempt to get some sleep now, so I can do get up earlyish, and get lots of work done tomorrow. The down side of being in charge of your own working schedule is that you tend to put alot of other things higher up on the priority list due to the flexibility of working.

So sleep,
Goodnight,
Hoping for a good bedlam tomorrow,
Elizabeth.

An add-on

I don't know if any of you have seen it or not yet, but Richard's latest post is somewhat entertaining. I must say however, I can think of a few more 'party' games I would like to see on the list.

Beer with me, for I am neither as eliquent as Richard, nor am I as punny. (ha... Richard making a good pun, that's fun. J/K - I still love you Richard.) But anyhow... things to be added to the list of not-so-famous drinking games:

• Drink til you barf! (you can guess the rules of the game)
• Who can get drunk first? (You also probably know how this one works.)

Onto the actual games... if that's what you choose to call them.

• How many people were unfortunate enough to have gone and watched Drowning Mona? Maybe it was Killing Mona, I don't recall, it was pretty bad. But anyhow, so one of the main characters, in the beginning of the movie is playing a game during which he takes a knive, and stabs it betweeen his outspread fingers one after another, then back again, so that he is creating an arch then going back and forth on that arch. The point of the game is to go as fast as possible. So... the game:: start that game. For every full arch that is successfully made, have a shot. The first person to lose a finger or other body part is the loser, and also probably dead. Yay! Fun game.
  
  
  
• Next game... strip poker ... with alcohol. Yes... to appease all you silly people who are under the assumption that boobs are everything, there you go. The one problem is gonna be trying to get a girl to play with you. Anyhow, so the way this game works is every time a person wins, they take a shot. Then, the people who are naked feel alright, because everyone who isn't naked is too drunk to know who is naked anyhow.
  
  
• I'm particularly fond of the carnival games, so the next would have to be the saucer on the cup game. You get a bunch of shot glasses, fill them with different liquids, or the same if you choose. Then arrange small plates over the top of them, upside down. After this is done, you should spray Pam on them, or splash olive oil, or vegetable oil over the top of them to make it more difficult. Next, take some coins, and toss them at the cups. If you make it in a cup then, you have to drink it. (not the coin though.) This is where different -yummy drinks come into play. If you don't make it. Have a beer. It's all good, try again later. This is a good game for the host of the party to start, because when the party is over, they get to keep the money. When the people run out of money, you can try to convince them to start throwing bills at the cups. Convince them that dollar airplanes fly better than coins.
  
  
  
• BINGO!!!! Every time someone gets a bingo, they get a shot, every time someone gets a number, they take a shot. Every time someone loses, they take a shot. Everytime a number is called, they take a shot. So basically, the game will probably not make it to the end.
  

I believe that this is enough of me making fun of Richard now, so I believe I'm gonna let you all go now. So I'll catch you later. Enjoy your fun and games and stuff.

Goodnight, and remember, drink responsibly.... (or something like that)

Later,
Elizabeth.